New Beginnings

It's been a while, a pretty long one.

Last time I'd posted something, I was excited about finishing a previous chapter in my life and  starting a new one. Unfortunately, one comes to learn that not everything that's expected will necessarily happen. Not because you're a bad person, not because you didn't work hard enough, not because you're any less deserving than everyone else, but because God knows what's best for you. God is kinder to you than you are to yourself. And although the direct apparent reason behind something you dislike happening to you may not be that obvious at first, one must believe that what fate has delivered is truly for the best, in a mystical way that's unknown to us mere simple-minded hyoomans.

That aside, most pertinent updates are as follows:
-I don't think I've ever mentioned Yoko, have I? Yoko is my baby (cat.) I haz cat now.
-Officially done with medical school!! Woot!
-Starting work in hospital as junior physician (shmancy for: glorified secretary) on the 1st of November.
-Finally got my septoplasty done last Tuesday.

More shall follow on each soon enough, but not now.

Also, in an effort to bring this dead blog to life, I decided to take up a 30 day writing challenge. More on that will follow as well, and I'll probably officially start it on the 1st of November.

With sleep slowly seeping into my system, I shall depart in an abrupt manner putting no effort whatsoever into making the transition seamless.

-R

Happy Birthday Chris Martin!!

Once again, it's March the 2nd, which is Chris Martin's birthday! I've written a birthday post back in 2011, and it's scary that four years have passed since then. However, I don't think I can alter much in what I wrote last time, because it was concise and clearly illustrated how I feel. So, bringing that back again, HAPPY 38th BIRTHDAY CHRIS! Wishing you many many more to come. Thank you for all your lovely music, I’ve been a fan since 2000 -I was 9. Seriously, thank you. You’re splendid, and I can’t imagine how the last FIFTEEN years would’ve been without you (and Coldplay, that is!)


Here's a cozy acoustic version of Shiver [a favorite], recorded way back in 2000, when Chris and Johnny were only 23 and 22, respectively:

It's amazing seeing them come so far.

In other news, my cat just burned her paw casually strolling over the stove. Brilliant. Yes I got a cat and her name is Yoko.

Oh, and I have my first final exam of the year this Saturday. It's the beginning of the end guys, countdown to finally graduating uni! These exams will make -or break- me, so lets hope all goes well. One thing I need to majorly improve on is my self confidence, or lack thereof. Consultants keep shoving it in my face that I'm very self conscious and that could potentially lead to me not getting a mark as high as I want it to be on my oral exams (which has alwayyyyyss been the case, but this time the exams are life determining..) and I do understand that body language goes a long way, but I've just never been that overt confident person..

"BUT YOU'RE GOING TO BE A DOCTOR!!!! YOU MUST BE CONFIDENT!!!"

I know. I hope I become a doctor too. But I'm still not, and even if I do manage to become one, it'll still take me ages to be the physician I want to be. I don't think I'll ever reach that level of knowledge and confidence where I just spit out info effortlessly. In regards to the little confidence I have which stems from the inadequate knowledge I have, I try my best periodically to change that, but I ultimately end up at square one. Anyhow, here's an interesting TED talk which gave me my life motto -for this year at least:

"Fake it till you become it."

I guess I'm going to need to do a lot of faking XD But it's a really eye-opening talk if you're like me, the type of person who's generally closed off and not that social, lacking major self-confidence. I'd urge you to watch it if you've got 20 minutes to divert from your work/studying/etc..

Anyhow, I hope that was enjoyable and beneficial :) I need to get back to studying before it's bed time, which is pretty soon..

Till next time xx

India in T - 10 Hours!

Good evening.
It's 1:52 AM and I'm exhausted. I'd intended this to be a post about me leaving to Chennai tomorrow tp work in a hospital there for a week, but thanks to my friend Juman's persistence to get the address to this blog, I spent the last 40 minutes editing the look of it and the title and whatnot. I loved the old one, but I decided it was a bit too old for me.

Anyhow, I'm leaving to India later today. Updates will hopefully ensue soon. Further updates must be in place for my past two weeks doing my clinical elective, that was pretty interesting too.

Before I go, to get a more descriptive feel of what I look like at the moment, watch this. The start of it was me for the past two weeks, but at 0:39 is when it starts to get accurate to this particular moment. Hence, I must bazzounce.

PEACE OUT.

Goodbye 2014

Yes, I've been away.
Yes, I've neglected this blog.

It's been long. Pretty long. It's been over a year since I last posted something here, and although I keep on saying I'll update this more, I fail in doing so. Maybe I'm a liar, maybe I'm a failure, maybe I'm both.
I can make many excuses for my absence:
1) I had a crap phone so I couldn't blog from it. [recently upgraded]
2) 5th year of med school. Senior cycle I. HAH. Death. 
3) 6th year of med school. Senior cycle II. HAHA. MORE DEATH. 
4) My crappy internet connection at my apartment, courtesy of **********m.
5) Laziness.
6) Procrastination gremlins. 
7) My mental status. 
8) Mental status.
9) Mental.
10) Status. 

With little left on the clock till 2014 ends, I thought I couldn't let a year mark pass without having at least one post on my blog for that year. That's a little too much of a fail, even for me. At least I still have a very minimal level of standards I'm trying to adhere to..

Anyhow, updates:
-I'm supposed to be graduating medical school June 2015. I'm donezo hopefully in six months. However, I haven't been studying as much as I'd like to in the past four months, so crunch time should ensue by the fourth of January by the latest.
-I quit basketball this year :( To focus on studying. Little did I know.............
-I'm going to Chennai, India for a community engagement medical elective sort of thing in about two weeks, hopefully I can post about that if time and internet connection allows. 
-My elective in California has been cancelled unfortunately, but I'm hoping that's for the better, and there's a reason I can't fully comprehend at the moment but it'll make sense soon. 
- During my hypomanic phase [I called it a hypomanic phase because it just felt like one. I was talking and acting in a hypomanic manner, and I also did NOT need to sleep at all. I went through 96 hours straight with less than 8 hours of sleep. I had to resort to sleeping aids eventually. It was pretty scary!] I don't know how or why it happened, but I managed to do many many things! I became part of my class's Senior Committee, joined 17 clubs in uni, became secretary for a club, joined on organizing a conference, became a writer for the school magazine, AND joined the university community engagement program. Also, I got a guitar and tried to learn a few things pending actual lessons.. In retrospect, my hypomanic phase was actually really nice. I'm now in a trough though, I don't know if it's because it's new year time or everything else but hopefully this can pass. However, that's another days post.

Moving on, as 14 minutes remain on the clock till the 1st of January, I think I'll end this post here. This is pressuring me. Reminds me of that time I submitted a paper 40 seconds before the portal closed. I felt like such a baws.

And with the accurate words of AWOLNATION playing this instant: "blame it on my ADD", I bid you farewell, and wish you a happy new year. Speak to you next year!

Endings

Tomorrow marks my first day in senior cycle 1, my year before last in university. I'm hoping it'll be a good year but being the person I am, I highly doubt it, as I'm not really looking forward to it, but let's hope all goes well. I hope I can share interesting incidents I come across and hopefully write more often.

Here goes nothing! 

I have finals in a week

Screw my life.

GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.

It's May Already?

Wow. If I wait just a bit more, it'll be a year record since my last post. A whole year. 


A.
WHOLE. 
YEAR. 
365 days. 


I'm useless, I know. 
I need to be more active, I know. 
I was discussing this with my friend a few weeks ago, seems like in grade school, I did so much more things. I somehow managed to fit school, homework, reading, writing, seeing friends, basketball/gym, and even surfing the net in my day while now in university, I barely (barely) study what I need to on a daily basis. College life sucks I must say. There are some perks, but I'd opt for highschool I guess.


My third year is about to end (on a good note, I hope) with exams in about a week. Sweet summer ensues in 21 days! Hopefully I'll be updating this more then with summer plans and stuff. 


Next time I blog, I'll be done with half the journey known as med school. 


Till then.