Something I've Recently Become to Lack..

Social etiquette skills.

I think I am by far one of the biggest losers ever -at least today proved so. At the mosque after prayer, I saw my friend and started chatting with her and stuff. In front of me, I saw a lady on a chair, late 40's perhaps.. She smiled to me and even though I looked at her straight in the eye, I shifted my sight away and acted like I hadn't seen her and continued speaking to my friend. To my amazement, the lady came up to us and said: "sorry to interrupt, but I wanted to say hello because I'm in a hurry nd I need to leave."

She shook my hand and asked me about myself, my family, my university, and like, everything that has anything to do with me in a minute. She knew I was doing medicine. She knew I was in Bahrain. She knew I was second year now. All my head could say was WHO IS THIS LADY? She knows a lot about me why don't I know her? Unfortunately, a weird habit of mine is not really speaking all.. Fluently (?) with people I don't recognize. I don't act even a tad bit welcoming. Its upsetting as I've been trying to let this go for quite some time but as I've come to realize, this was never an issue to me :/ I mean, I think I've only become this way during last year. I really was never this way. Heck, my friend would always call me the "social butterfly" of my year in high school! I guess losing a close friend for a long period of time (a whole year without her as opposed to seeing her on a daily basis) turns you into some sort of introvert?

Oh, and I never ever ask the person I don't recognize about who they might be. Ever. I just hope really really hard that they don't ask me if I know who they are, because I dread saying 'no' to them. Does this all make sense or am I being irrational? I'm almost 19 and at an average two times the size of the person I'm speaking to at any given time. Why can't I develop just a LITTLE more social etiquette skills? I mean, I don't have any issues with meeting new people.. Its just that I get all awkward around the ones who already know me when I have no clue who they are :S Also, its not like I intend to go all cold like that around them, it just happens. I just get so upset afterwards because I don't like giving people a wrong impression about myself.

Oh well.. I will discuss this in my head forever more.. Till I reach a more convincing state.

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