Awkwardness.

Just about an hour ago, I had the biggest awkward situation ever with someone.. And it kinda got to me, because I spend hours obsessing on whatever situation I was in for the whole day -possibly week. And I really really hate it because in an effort to make myself look all smug to the person who the situation concerns, I actually made a huge fool out of myself in the process. And now I hate me. And what happened. And I don't think I'll get over this soon, because that's just how I am. I dwell on whatever "embarrassing" situation I'm put through. UGHHHHH JUST WRITING THIS MAKES ME REMEMBER WHAT HAPPENED AND GET ALL UNCOMFORTABLE AGAIN.

Its like I'm a freaking magnet to awkward situations. Why is it that I must encounter these on a weekly basis? Because this has been going on for quite some time now,, around 4 years now. I've noticed and counted.

I wasn't even done with writing that when something else happened, this time with a total stranger person who I must see daily (uni) but don't really know.
So from a weekly basis, I'm reduced to hourly. Yay :D

I hate this. Thank you very much.